Search for the flame

I search for that flame
I search for that fire
Through the dark I search
For that eternal light
Through the cobwebs of pain
I search for that true light

A glimmer in the distance
A shine in the dark
It feels so near
That it brought a smile
It feels like bliss
It feels like peace

A breath of air I release
A triumph I feel
But the gust of air
Burnt the flame
A shroud of darkness spreads
Where imagination runs wild

Noise

The words echo in my house
As I fill it with noise
The presence it evokes
The silence it reduces

Noise seems pleasant
Noise seems safe
Thoughts are mushed
Lost in the noise

No words from me
But noise all around
A cocoon I sleep in
As I lose to the noise

I was told

I was told to move
I was told to stand
I was told to be silent
I was told to hold still

I moved
I stood
I was silent
I held still

Where is me
If I was always told
Where is me
If I have always listened

Where is me
If I haven't tried
Where is me
If I haven't dreamt

Where is me

Scared?
Frightened?
Resigned?

Why I can't find myself?
Why?